Will I have this desire for the rest of my life???

[Traci25]

I'm so glad I'm not alone, Having the worst time with this pregnancy this was supposed to be and complete us
Now, I feel such resentment. Thinking of
#5 but think it's going to be south harder than having 4

[HappyLea]

Well I have spoken to hubby and told him my true feelings on a few occasions now since my post and he seemed shocked that I wanted another (I have been telling everyone Im done...trying to convince myself in the mean time)

He has said he doesn't want anymore but I get the feeling from him that if we were gauranteed a girl he would. He did do abit of research himself (this shocked me) into HT. I honestly don't think he likes the idea of HT but I think maybe once we have moved house I could possibly talk to him about this in the future. He said once we get out of the baby stage with George (just turned 1) he doesn't want to go back into baby stage but then also said maybe I should wait until we are out of baby stage and my feelings for wanting another may change - this did confuse me alittle because if my feelings dont change is there hope??? He didn't say yes/no

I don't want to put too much pressure on him so atm he knows how I feel and I know how he feels and hopefully at some point we can come together either way and be happy with either not having another or having another. We are looking at relocating which is such a big thing atm so hopefully when this is done and we know what our funds are like maybe I can get him too look more into HT. Or maybe I will feel differently (which I totally doubt will happen) Why does this have to be so hard???

[HappyLea]

Sending much love to all you ladies who are also feeling like me! We are not alone in this and its good to have you to talk too. Xxx