She is here.

[Hobbermittens]

Oh ZB, I know how you feel. It took me a LONG time to bond with DD2. I wasn't happy she was here for months. I know things will get better for you, but it will take a while. Try not to be hard on yourself.... GD, PPD, all of it isn't your fault. I have a month to go, and I will probably be right where you are now. Please stay in touch with all of us here so we can help you through the rough times. :hug:

[The Anchor]

I am so sorry you are feeling this way...I hope you are able to find peace somehow...

[BeadinMom]

Congratulations on your new baby girl!!
I hope you find peace soon, too.

Thinking of you & your family...♥

[ruby]

Oh ZB I have tears in my eyes reading the pain in the words of your post.

I want to give you a huge hug ! I'm sure your baby girl is beautiful and as the other ladies have said, in time I'm sure she will hold a very special place in your heart. We're all here to listen, please remember that.

Big kiss for you and your precious baby xx

[zanacal]

Oh ZB, I'm so sorry you're feeling down. I'm crap at finding the right words but my heart hurts for you reading your update and I wish I could give you a massive cuddle and help you in a practical way. Take care of yourself and take whatever time and help you need - and congratulations, I'd love to see a photo or 5 and hear some more details too!

[Zivic-Bubac]

Guys thank you million times for your kind words of understanding!!!!!! I wish you could all come here!
Your understanding is precious to me!

I still can't deal with the fact I've had 3rd daughter, but I have to say she looks more and more cute every day. I'm sure I'll bond with her, until then (like someone here said it ) I'll fake it til I make it.

She was 4350g ( 9lb 9oz) and 53cm (20inches) at birth, so my biggest baby so far. She looks like her big sister DD2, or in other words like her daddy. DH seems to be genuinely happy he is daddy again and when I try to speak about my....ummm let's say big expectations she was going to be a boy, he always stops me and tell it's a blasphemy to be ungrateful for a healthy baby God meant for us.
He is right, I know it , I just have to accept it on emotional level.

Sorry for rambling.

THANK YOU ALL ONCE AGAIN!!!!!! You are in my heart and prayers.

P.S. I'll stick around, this is the best and friendliest place to be + I have to plan my next sway.
Good news is I'm not crying anymore which probably means hormones are settling in

[Zivic-Bubac]

I'll post her pics one of these days

[nuthinbutpink]

You sound better, ZB. I'm happy to read that. It gets better. Promise. I'm not one to make false promises or blow sunshine anyone's way. It will get better.

[Yuzu]

Oh, I'm so glad to hear that you sound much happier! It will take some time, of course, but we'll be here for you always.

[skrimpy]

(((hugs))) ZB, I'm sorry it's so rough right now. Remember that your little one, despite looking just like a newborn now, is wonderfully unique. She'll be special in her own way, with her own little personality. It was so hard to have a girl when I really wanted a boy, but I'm so thankful for Honor every day. She's the light of my life and brings joy to every day (even when she's cranky!!) It may take time to fall in love at first, but you'll see more and more of the awesome person that she is, and everything she has to offer as part of the family and in her own future <3